The Good Friday Sermon

Good Friday, March 25, 2016, Church of the Advocate, Chapel Hill, By Kenneth R. Bullock

At the cross her vigil keeping,
Mary stood in sorrow, weeping,
When her Son was crucified.

Although all the gospels speak of the women who had accompanied Jesus from Galilee watching as Jesus was crucified, only John explicitly states that Jesus’ mother stood at the foot of the cross, together with Mary, the wife of Clopas, Mary Magdalene, and the disciple whom Jesus loved. It is hard to imagine what it was like for Mary as her son was executed as a threat to the powers that be. Thirty-odd years earlier the angel Gabriel had appeared to her to announce that she would bear a son, whom she was to name Jesus. Today is not only Good Friday, when we contemplate Jesus’ death on the cross. It happens that it would also be the Feast of the Annunciation, if the Prayer Book were not explicit about stating that Feasts falling during Holy Week or Easter Week are to be transferred to the following week. Still, it is worth contemplating that these two events happen to fall on the same day this year.

But today we turn our attention, not to Mary encountering an angel with an announcement that would radically change her life, but to the cross, where Mary, the grieving mother, stands, watching her beloved Son suffer and die.

While she waited in her anguish,
Seeing Christ in torment languish,
Bitter sorrow pierced her heart.

We are used to seeing crosses in many forms. The cross is at the heart of the Christian gospel. Whenever we move in procession, a cross of carved wood leads us. Today I am wearing a silver cross, sand-cast by a Navaho silversmith in Santa Fe. When we see the cross in these beautiful forms, it is easy to forget that it was a brutal, rough, instrument of execution, of state-sponsored terror. But that was the cross at which Mary stood vigil.

With what pain and desolation,
With what noble resignation,
Mary watched her dying Son.

But what is the meaning of the cross for Christians? Did Jesus die because humanity’s sins are so great that God’s justice requires the death penalty, and he died as a substitute for us, to atone for our sins? Or did he die to free us from injustice endemic in human civilization, and from death’s stranglehold on human life? From the Middle Ages on, from the time of Anselm, Archbishop of Canterbury in the 11th century, Western Christianity has all too often emphasized the suffering of Christ on the cross as a substitution to pay the debt for our sins. Eastern Christianity, in continuity with a tradition from the first millennium of the Christian era, emphasizes the victory of the Cross, in which God, through the death of Jesus, invades hell, breaking into the realm of Death itself, freeing humans from captivity to death.

For early Christians there was no separation between Christ’s passion and resurrection. The earliest liturgies did not separate them. A single, three-day event proclaimed Jesus’ arrest, crucifixion, and resurrection, culminating in the Easter vigil and Eucharist. If you look carefully, you will notice that our own Maundy Thursday, Good Friday, and Holy Saturday liturgies begin without an opening acclamation, and conclude without a dismissal. It is all part of one story, to be continued.

In Jesus’ day the Romans used crucifixion as a punishment for, and a deterrent to, rebellion. It was a cruel, brutal form of punishment. In the century in which Jesus lived there were many thousands of people crucified around Jerusalem alone. The Roman Jewish historian Josephus tells of torture and crucifixion in the year 70 C. E., during the siege of Jerusalem that destroyed the temple and dispersed the people:

“The majority were citizens of the poorer class … five hundred or sometimes more being captured daily. … so great was their number, that space could not be found for the crosses nor crosses for the bodies.”i

John Dominic Crossan notes it was not the fact that the victim suffered, that was significant, but the complete annihilation of the person, as the body was consumed by carrion birds, wild beasts, and roving packs of dogs.

John’s account of Jesus’ crucifixion is a theological statement, not a factual reporting of events. For John, Jesus was not a victim of forces beyond his control. On that Friday afternoon two worlds met in conflict; the world of Caesar, represented by Pilate, the Roman governor; and the world of the one whose kingdom is not of this world, Jesus. Jesus was not the only one in first-century Judea to whom the titles son of god, Lord, redeemer, and even savior of the world were applied. They were also titles by which Octavius, Caesar Augustus, was known, titles that continued to be very much a part of Roman imperial theology under the successors of Caesar Augustus. In ways that we find difficult to imagine, there was a very real clash of empires, between the Roman imperial world whose motto was “peace through victory” and the kingdom of the God of Jesus, whose vision was “peace through nonviolent justice.”

From the beginning of John’s narrative, Jesus is in charge. He orchestrates his own arrest. John’s poetic language, filled with allusions, suggests many levels of meaning. Like the parables Jesus told, these elements of John’s story do not tell us outright what the message is, but tease us into drawing our own conclusions about Jesus and his Passion. In John’s narrative, Jesus and his disciples cross the Kidron ravine, retracing the steps of David a thousand years earlier. In a garden there a whole cohort of Roman soldiers (some 600 men) follows him, along with the chief priest’s guards. Jesus asks whom they seek. They say, “Jesus of Nazareth.” When Jesus replies, “I am he,” they all fall to the ground. The English obscures the allusion. The Greek words, ??? ????, may be literally translated as “I am,” the very name of God revealed to Moses from the burning bush in Exodus. Questioned before the high priest secretly, then arraigned before Pilate, Jesus is articulate and ironic in reply, and we who read John’s account may perceive meanings in what he says that completely escaped Pilate or the Jewish leaders. One might ask, who is really on trial here, Jesus or Pilate? Condemned, Jesus is led to Golgotha, carrying his own cross, strong and unbroken. There he is crucified. A notice above Jesus’ head reads, “Jesus of Nazareth, King of the Jews.” Despite the protests of the chief priests, Pilate refuses to change what he has written. Unwittingly, Pilate, who during Jesus’ trial cynically asks “What is truth?” tells the truth about Jesus.

At the foot of the cross stand Jesus’ mother and the disciple whom he loved. He commends them to each other’s care. They are now family. Jesus gives himself for us that we may be given to one another in God’s new community.

Who, that sorrow contemplating
On that passion meditating,
Would not share the Virgin’s grief.

In fulfillment of scripture, Jesus says, “I thirst.” After receiving the sour wine he says, “It is finished,” and gives over the spirit – in John’s Greek, not “his spirit.” It is not a cry of anguish, but “mission accomplished.” Jesus, in his final act, gives over the spirit – to the church, represented by the new family standing before him. The movement Jesus began would continue, given over to the new community of God he had established.

The soldiers divide his clothing, and gamble for his tunic, which was seamless, like that of the high priest. The soldiers, coming to break the legs of the crucified so they would not remain on the cross over Passover, find Jesus dead. Like the Passover lamb, not a bone of him was broken. He dies on the day of preparation for the Passover, as Passover lambs were being butchered. Water and blood flow from Jesus’ side, pierced by a soldier’s spear, signifying baptism and Eucharist to the early church fathers.

John’s telling of Jesus’ passion is not a story of human tragedy and heroism. Nor is Jesus a victim of events he could not control. It is the Temple authorities and Pilate who appear disorganized and powerless. No one takes Jesus’ life from him. He offers it up, to reveal the saving glory of God. He is the king, whose throne is the cross.

Although John’s account differs from the other gospels, it is not accurate to say that one is right and the others are not. Each is like a parable, proclaiming, in their different ways, that Jesus is Lord, and the lords of this world, whether feudal, or industrial and economic, or political and imperial, are not, and do not have the final say. Nor is it accurate to say that to represent the cross as a rough-hewn object made of heavy timbers is right, while to make it into a gold and jeweled necklace, or as a mark made with holy oil signed on the forehead is wrong. To portray the cross with a realistic, tortured, naked human form suffering on it is no more “right” than to portray the cross with a triumphant Christus Rex figure robed in richly colored vestments and a golden crown, or to portray it with no human form at all on it. Each represents a different way of seeing this powerful symbol.

Two perspectives in today’s readings are best seen together. One perspective, in John’s gospel, is Christ as the king who comes from God, who takes the initiative in identifying completely with sinful humans, to invade hell and rescue us from death. It is a movement by God’s initiative, toward humanity. The cross is the culmination of the divine self-emptying that was described in the ancient hymn that Paul quoted in his letter to the Philippians:

“… though he was in the form of God, [he] did not regard equality with God as something to be exploited, but emptied himself, taking the form of a slave, being born in human likeness,
And being found in human form, he humbled himself and became obedient to the point of death—even death on a cross.” (Philippians 2:6-8)

The other perspective, in the reading from Hebrews, represents a movement in the opposite direction, from humanity toward God, in Christ’s priestly offering to God:

“Therefore, my friends, since we have confidence to enter the sanctuary by the blood of Jesus, by the new and living way that he opened for us through the curtain (that is, through his flesh), and since we have a great priest over the house of God, let us approach with a true heart in full assurance of faith, with our hearts sprinkled clean from an evil conscience and our bodies washed with pure water.” [Hebrews 10:19-22]

Because of Christ’s cross we are able to approach God’s presence. Our own search for God can never by itself find God. The good news of the cross is that God has come to find us, and in Christ God has freed us, so that in Christ we find our hearts’ desire and our true identity. In Christ’s cross we are reconciled with God, with one another, and with ourselves. We are made part of that new reality that Jesus preached, the kingdom of God. By our baptism we share in Christ’s passion, not only in the sense of what he suffered, but in his larger passion for God and God’s dream for a renewed heaven and earth that brought him to the cross.

Tonight we stand with Mary at the foot of the cross. The cross may stir many emotions in us, as we contemplate what it means for each of us to share Christ’s passion. In this moment the focus is on sorrow and grief, with Jesus’ blessed mother:

At the cross, your sorrow sharing,
All your grief and torment bearing,
Let me stand and mourn with you.

But the story does not end here. Jesus’ story does not end on the cross. Nor does our liturgy of the Triduum, the three holy days. It merely pauses, while we look ahead to what it means to share, in the coming days, weeks and months, the passion Jesus has for God’s new heaven and new earth, and to be a part of the Jesus movement on the way toward that new heaven and new earth. And so, like our liturgy of Good Friday, it is now “to be continued . . .”

i Josephus, War 5.447-451, quoted in John Dominic Crossan, Jesus: A Revolutionary Biography (Harper San Francisco, 1995), p. 126.

Outrage and Expectation in Advent: A David Wantland Sermon

A sermon offered by David Wantland, Postulant for Holy Orders, at the Advocate on Advent I, November 30, 2015.

Joan Chittister says that Advent is about learning to wait, learning to look for God in the places that we have ignored, learning to attune our eyes away from business toward holiness. It is an appropriate injunction when our default is to let Christmas, well, whisk us straight through Advent into Epiphany. The shopping, the holiday gatherings, the end of year donations, blah, blah blah, you’ve heard it all before. I do not want to discount the value of slowing down, taking time to practice waiting, to pause and to look. It’s important. It’s also terribly insincere. It’s insincere because this kind of waiting only captures one aspect of advent: waiting for a sweet baby to be born. But what of the other part, the waiting for Christ to return?

Acknowledging that we will be looking, watching, waiting, our gospel today names some potential objects of our gaze: signs in the sun, moon, and the stars, distress among nations, the roaring of the sea and the waves. In the two millennia since Jesus’ ascension, haven’t we had enough of signs in the sky, of distress among nations, of fear and foreboding? Whether today’s gospel text was foreboding the Second Coming or simply the destruction of the Temple in 70 AD (a point, apparently well-contested by New Testament scholars), the fact is that we are still waiting. And the signs and signals just keep coming. New murders, newly released video reminding us that lynching remains a practice of white supremacy in this country; people frantically gobbling up information, craning to make sense of large-scale violence in nations around the world; the literal roaring of the seas in places that have not previously known it– I think we get it. We’ve had the signs and, as Jesus in Luke’s gospel impels us to, we have stood up with raised heads, awaiting our redemption to draw near.

And yet here we are, another advent, a new church year. We are still waiting.

Advent is exhausting, exhausting because we are at once called into a season of joyful anticipation of Jesus’ first coming and a season to mourn that he has not come again. Frankly, I don’t know how to do both at once. Give me Easter, give me Lent, but not at the same time.

It is no coincidence, then, that our lectionary gives us the account of a prophet who found himself tugged between joyful anticipation and mourning. Our text from Jeremiah drops us in the middle of a fraught situation. Moved by God to announce the coming destruction of Jerusalem, Jeremiah’s been working hard to get people’s attention: He’s been walking around the city with an ox yolk on his neck to foretell their impending slavery. Most recently, he’s gone into Solomon’s Temple, which the Israelites believed God would never abandon, promising that God would make it like the temple at Shiloh-i.e. destroy it. Unsurprisingly, King Zedekiah gets angry and imprisons him in the palace. Not to be pacified, Jeremiah then tells King Zedekiah that the LORD is going to allow Babylon to come into Judah, destroy the city, and lead the people of Judah, along with its king, back to Babylon in chains. The offence of this claim ignites a plot to kill Jeremiah. Without the king’s blessing, the plotters settle on throwing him in an empty water tank, where an Ethiopian eunuch– perhaps one who had equally known the poor treatment of the king’s people– retrieves him.

Just before he is thrown in the water tank, Jeremiah does something really obtuse: despite all that he has said concerning God’s plans for Judah, despite the fact that the Babylonian army has encircled the city in which he lives, he goes out and buys a plot of land, proclaiming the word of the LORD that “Houses and fields and vineyards shall again be bought in this land.”

Jeremiah finds himself, I think, in an adventine disposition. On the one hand, he has the relative confidence of hearing the word of the LORD. Analogous to our trust in the first coming of Christ, Jeremiah at least has something in the past to justify his behavior. On the other hand, he lives at the brink of dissolution. He has committed years of his life living an alternative narrative in the face of religious and political leaders proclaiming their own invincibility. All that labor has been relatively fruitless. He has seen the gathering storm, the soldiers approaching, knowing that Judah has much to endure before “Jerusalem will live in safety.” Even though his own mouth foretold this coming doom, I wonder if Jeremiah didn’t still doubt God. “Is this the only way to redress Judah?”

Amidst the existential anxiety and fear, God still gives Judah a word of hope, a word of anticipation: In this place of which you say, “it is a waste”…there shall once more be heard the voice of mirth and the voice of gladness, the voice of the bridegroom and the voice of the bride, the voices of those who sing… “Give thanks to the LORD of hosts, for the LORD is good, for his fidelity endures forever!”

What an absurd hope: to stand at the door of destruction and still imagine the voice of mirth and gladness in that place. And yet hope he does.

If for no other reason, Jeremiah gives us hope because we live on the other side of his vision. We know of the story of God’s people in captivity, of their return to Jerusalem, and the rebuilding of the Temple. We know that God remained and remains faithful to Israel, accompanying them through many subsequent captivities. And we know God’s provision for Israel primarily because we have come to receive it through one Jew, Jesus of Nazareth.

Of course, this knowledge does not somehow mitigate the current state of waiting. But it does allow an unlikely adventine virtue: outrage.

Yes, outrage. The virtue of saying to the One who can do something about the coming of that long-expected Kingdom, “where the hell are you?” The practice of shedding the pious posture of middle class religiosity and adding our voices to the lives of those who are dying, who are finding their worlds completely destroyed by violence, their livelihoods by changing climate, so as to say, “we actually believe you can and will do something about this mess. Yes, we believe we’re a part of it, but you’re the one bringing the Kingdom. So get on with it!”

Amidst our incomprehensible hope for the coming of God’s kingdom, amidst the cultivation of patience, there is definitely a place to speak to God in outrage. It is a statement of belief as ardent as the Creed we proclaim each Sunday. Outrage is expectation, not hopelessness. As such, it is a fitting advent hope.

To that end, I invite you into two liturgical practices this season. They’re easy and they require no more out of you than showing up like you have done today.

First, while we learn from practices of patience, I invite you to sing “O Come O Come Immanuel” as a hymn of impatience and urgency, in which we affirm that it would not simply be convenient for Christ to come, but that we need him to. Allow that hymn, which we will sing as a gradual each Sunday, to be for you a cry of outrage, remembering that there are literal captives in need of ransom, refugees for whom exile is not metaphor, and those who desperately want closed the paths of misery, because they and their families currently walk it.

Perhaps, I have done nothing more than draw you into my own exhaustion with advent–and it’s only day one. But just as outrage is possible because it affirms the belief in God’s willingness and ability to come at last, so our exhaustion is only tenable because we come together, here in this place, to find sustenance together at the table of our Lord. So my second invitation to liturgical practice is this: dwell on the “sustainer.” In various seasons here at the Advocate, the liturgy calls God “sustainer.” Yet, Advent is a particularly good season to call God “sustainer” if we consider “sustainer” from the perspective of those just struggling to avoid getting shot at, struggling to keep their family together on the boat, struggling to dig through the rubble, those who understand that to be sustained is to be kept alive. As you are able, let that word shout out to you and let it draw you to the table, for your own sake, and for the chance to encounter the One to whom your outrage is directed. May we come not for solace only but for strength, not for pardon only, but for renewal. May this Advent, as we hang in the exhausting balance between joyful hope and desperate hope, draw us to the Table, not because we are there obliged, because we there glimpse the Coming of the Lord whom we await. Amen



Hope and Risk — A Nathan Kirkpatrick Sermon for Advent II

Sermon offered by The Rev. Nathan Kirkpatrick, Transitional Deacon at the Advocate, Advent II, 2015

Do you know the work of the Episcopal novelist Madeleine L’Engle? She’s most famous for her book A Wrinkle in Time, but many of her other works are just as good. She has one book about the connections between faith and the arts called Walking on Water that I cannot commend to you highly enough.

In one of her books, The Irrational Season, she is discussing the discernment a couple must do to enter into the commitment of the covenant of marriage, and she writes this: “Ultimately there comes a time when a decision must be made. Ultimately two people who love each other must ask themselves how much they hope for as their love grows and deepens, and how much risk they are willing to take.” And then she says, “It is indeed a fearful gamble.”

The decision to risk love is to plumb the depths of our longing and to test our tolerance for risk. It is to hope deeply that this other person might care for and about us the way we need and want; it is to hope that, no matter our past, this other person might behold in us something beautiful and see in us a future. To love is to hope, and if we’re not willing to hope, then there’s no way we can love.

And to love is to risk. It is to give of ourselves regardless of our past, regardless of our histories and our hurts, beyond our histories and our hurts. In fact, it is to open ourselves up to hurt, to make ourselves vulnerable to another person. Where there’s no risk and no vulnerability, there can be no trust. And where’s there’s no trust, there can be no love. So, if we’re not willing to risk, then there’s no way we can love. 

According to Madeleine L’Engle, love puts before us these two questions: How much are we willing to hope for, and how much or ourselves are we willing to risk that our hope would be fulfilled? These are not new questions, and these are not just the questions of couples discerning love or commitment or marriage. These questions belong to the whole human family and are renewed in every generation.


To me, these are also the questions that come when Scripture says “and the word of the Lord came.” Often times, when we hear that scriptural phrase the word of the Lord came to Isaiah or Jeremiah orJonah, we tend to believe that it comes with a lot of periods and exclamation marks. That it comes as a declaration; that it comes with a certain finality, as if an angel drops something the size of a phone book and says, “there.” But, this Advent, I would invite us to think that, when the word of the Lord comes, it comes with question marks. That the word of the Lord comes and begins a dynamic dialogue that echoes with Madeleine L’Engle’s questions. 

So, in the third chapter of St Luke’s Gospel, when we read that the word of the Lord comes to John, son of Zechariah and Elizabeth, what if we hear that as: 

John, son of Zechariah and Elizabeth, how much are you willing to hope for? And how much of yourself are you willing to risk to make it so?

John, are you willing to hope that this is the time when God will come to God’s people? When the Dream of God will draw near in flesh and blood? That earth will be filled with heaven? John, are you willing to hope that this is the season when the promise of the past will be made good, when the vision of the prophets and hopes of the people will be realized, when the promise of the future will be made sure? Are you willing to hope it? How did we pray it last week? Are you willing, John, to believe that “now in the time of this mortal life … Jesus Christ [will come] to visit us in great humility”? 

How much do you hope for, John, son of Zechariah and Elizabeth? And John, how much are you willing to risk to take to make it so? Because if this is going to happen, then this may require more of you than you are ready, than you are prepared, than you believe you are capable of giving to make it so, so how much are you, John, son of Zechariah and Elizabeth, willing to risk?

Did you notice at the beginning of our reading we heard these words?

When, in the fifteenth year of the reign of Emperor Tiberius, when Pontius Pilate was governor of Judea, and Herod was ruler of Galilee, and his brother Philip ruler of the region of Ituraea and Trachonitis, and Lysanias ruler of Abilene, during the high priesthood of Annas and Caiaphas, the word of God came to John son of Zechariah in the wilderness.

On the one hand, this is just St Luke’s way of dating this little encounter between John and the word of the Lord. On the other hand, though, it is also a reminder that, when those seven people seemed to hold all the power in the world, the word of the Lord came to a lone guy in the wilderness eating locusts and wild honey and wearing animal skins, asking what he hoped for and if he was willing to risk to make it so, asking if he was willing to announce the time when the power structure that kept those seven in place was being turned upside down. See, when John quotes Isaiah, “The voice of one crying in the wilderness,” we can hear that as “the voice of a person crying in the wilderness” or we can hear that as “the voice of ONE crying in the wilderness.” 

John, son of Zechariah and Elizabeth, how much risk are you willing to take for the hope that you have? John, son of Zechariah, are you willing to risk yourself to ready the world for the Advent of God? Are you willing to risk judgment and confusion — are you willing to risk your life itself — that the word might come in your midst?


Advocates, in the seventh year of the presidency of Barack Obama, in the third year of the governorship of Pat McCrory, in the first month of the presiding episcopate of Michael Curry, Advocates, in Advent, the word of God now comes to us and asks us the same two questions. What do you hope for and how much risk will you take to make it so?

Last week, David Wantland challenged us to cultivate an Advent discipline of outrage, and I think he is spot on. But, this week, I want to note that outrage is born of hope — frustrated hope, disappointed hope, to be sure — but hope nonetheless. You don’t get outraged about things you don’t want to be different. Outrage is born of longing. 

See, this is part of the perniciousness of cynicism, that wearing down of the soul until it hopes and longs for nothing, lest it be disappointed again. 

For us to tap our outrage is for us to touch our hope, to renew our longing for what only God in Jesus Christ will do.

So, what do you hope? 

Do you hope that this is the season when the peaks of prejudice and the high hills of hatred will be leveled into love? Do you hope that those who know too well the valleys of oppression and poverty and heartbreak and despair might be raised up to level ground? Do you hope that the rough places of relationships might be smoothed by reconciliation? Are you willing to hope that the crook and the crooked might be straightened by justice and inspired to integrity? Do you hope that this is the season when the weapons that haunt our streets and wage our wars will be turned into harmless farm tools? 

And if you hope it, then what of yourself are you willing to risk to make it so? What of yourself are you willing to give over to God so that you might be a part of this new thing coming into our midst? You will need the courage of the teenage mother who is carrying the infant God for the sake of the world. You will need the resolve of the wilderness walker who comes to prepare the way.

There comes a time when a decision must be made, when we, Advent people that we are, must ask ourselves how much we hope for and how much risk we are willing to take. 

It is a fearful gamble to hope and to risk.

It is a fearful gamble called love. It is a fearful gamble called faith.

Servants, Sacrifice and Creation: A Vicar’s sermon

A sermon on October 18, 2015 (Year B – Proper 24 ) by The Rev. Lisa G. Fischbeck, Vicar

In the Name of the creating, restoring and transforming God, Father, Son and Holy Spirit.   AMEN

I’ve been waiting.
Waiting for a Sunday in this season of Creation, the unofficial mini-season within the mega-season called Ordinary Time,
I’ve been waiting for a Sunday when the readings align, connecting the Christian Gospel with the cosmos, the way of Jesus with the creation and care of this fragile earth, our island home.

And today is the day.
Oh it may not seem obvious at first.
But it’s there.

In the Gospel Jesus teaches us, as he so often does, to be servants.
Servants of God and servants of/to one another.
Not in an “I’m the master you are the servant” kind of way, but in an
“I’m a servant, so if you follow me, you will be a servant, too.” kind of way.

Jesus says:
“…whoever wishes to be great among you must be your servant,
and whoever wishes to be first among you must be slave of all.”

And so we sing on Maundy Thursday:
“Won’t you let me be your servant
let me be as Christ to you….”

I don’t know what comes to your mind when you consider this image of servant.
Foot-washing, perhaps.
Or maybe giving up something you like in order to do something you think you are supposed to do.
I don’t know –
Give up dinner at a fancy restaurant in order to give more money to those who are hungry.
Or maybe when you think of being a servant á la Jesus,
you think of martyrdom,
willing to give up you very life for another, or others.

It is tempting to think that Christian servanthood is all of this and more.
In which case, we might as well add to the list,
to be a servant of God is to take care of God’s Creation, the environment.

But I want to stop the litany there.
And say that Christian servanthood is actually not about making the world a better place,
or making yourself a better person.
It isn’t about martyring yourself –
(though Christian servanthood can indeed lead to martyrdom.)

No, Christian servanthood is not about these things.
Rather, Christian servanthood is, as today’s Gospel reveals,
Christian servanthood is about drinking the cup that Jesus drinks.
It is about being baptized with the baptism with which Jesus was baptized.
It is about offering ourselves in sacrifice, yes.
But not sacrificing ourselves to other human beings
or to a political ideal,
or even to a religion.

Rather, Christian servanthood is about offering ourselves in sacrifice to God,
about giving ourselves to God, in Christ.

Sometimes, here at the Church of the Advocate,
and indeed sometimes in every church,
we can get so caught up in the music,
or the beauty or even the playfulness of the liturgy,
or our own need for communion with one another and with God,
that we can lose track of the reality
that a big chunk of what is going on in the Sunday Eucharistic liturgy is actually
sacrifice and formation,
sacrifice and formation for servanthood.
And it is not just Jesus who is being offered as a sacrifice – in bread and in wine.
But it is you and me.

We pray for it, you know.

In the old Eucharistic prayer in the Book of Common Prayer, we prayed:
And here we offer and present unto thee, O Lord, our selves, our souls and bodies, to be a reasonable, holy, and living sacrifice unto thee…”
“…. we earnestly desire thy fatherly goodness to accept this our sacrifice of praise and thanksgiving, whereby we offer and present unto thee, O Lord, our selves, our souls and bodies…”

Elsewhere we pray “Unite us to your Son in his sacrifice.”
Or, in another Eucharistic prayer:
“Grant that all who share in this bread and cup may become one body and one spirit, a living sacrifice in Christ.”

We may lose sight of it, but in truth we come here, week by week, to sacrifice ourselves to God, to join with Christ in his sacrifice.
That’s what the whole offertory thing is about, you know.
We give of our labors, symbolized in the bread and the wine,
“from God’s creation,” yes,
and also the “work of human hands”.
We give of our lives,
symbolized by our offertory procession,
our souls our bodies, our minds,
the cash, the food, put in the basket.

When we drop that dollar or that box of pasta in the basket,
we are, in effect, getting into the basket with it.
We are being lifted up at the altar along with the bread and the wine.

Even what we call this particular piece of furniture says something about what we believe is happening here.
Notice that we call it an altar, not a communion table.
A communion table is something that the faithful gather around in order to hear the story of the last supper and to realize themselves as a communion of faithful people.
An altar is something that the faithful gather around as well.
But then we are offered up, lifted up,
right along with Jesus,
we are lifted up, given to God and blessed,
given to God and blessed and transformed by God.
Then sent back into the world.

We are about sacrifice here.
Sacrificing our selves, our labor, our lives, to God,
being united to Christ in his sacrifice,
drinking the cup that he drinks.

And the result isn’t a choice, a decision, of how to behave:
“Today, I am going to be a sacrificial, suffering servant, because Jesus was, and that is what I am called to be.”
Rather, our sacrifice stems from a choice to allow ourselves to be formed and transformed.
Formed and transformed by the community,
Formed and transformed by the sacrament,
Formed and transformed by God.

It’s like putting the emphasis on a different syllable
and discovering we’ve been mispronouncing the word all our lives.

Remember that liturgy both expresses what we believe and who we are,
and shapes what we believe, what we become.
It is through this sacrifice, made week after week,
ideally augmented by some stillness and contemplation through the week,
that we are formed, that we are transformed,
to be the people of God in the world.

Over time, you know, we become like the people we spend time with,
the people we admire.
We pick up a phrase, a mannerism, a style.
We don’t choose to do it, it just happens.
Well the same thing happens in a cosmic dimension here,
if we let it.

It is through this sacrifice, made week after week,
that we are, in some strange way,
united to Christ,
united to God
united to one another|
united to all of God’s creation even.

Through it, in it, by it,
suddenly, or not-so-suddenly,
we find that our work for justice,
our willingness to go the extra mile for a neighbor in need,
our willingness to provide food to the poor,
to visit the sick and those in prison,
to be mindful of our energy consumption,
our willingness, our desire, our passion even,
to do any of these things,
is not borne of political ideology
nor of guilt,
nor of duty,
nor of a desire for self-improvement.
But rather it is borne of God.
It emerges from the oneness that we realize with God in Christ.

So that when we hear the
poetic waxing in the book of Job,
it isn’t something separate from the rest of what we do and who we are.
When we join our voice to the voice of the Psalmist,
it isn’t just a pretty song.
When Pope Francis comes forth with an encyclical about the environment,
and we hear the way in which that encyclical integrally connects our care of the environment to our care for the poor,
it isn’t something coming out of so-called left field,
the pope getting involved in secular politics.
It is, rather, a seamless part of the whole fabric of our lives and faith.

So it is that we can join our prayer to his, saying,
All-powerful God, you are present in the whole universe
and in the smallest of your creatures.
You embrace with your tenderness all that exists.
Pour out upon us the power of your love,
that we may protect life and beauty. ….

Pour out upon us the power of your love,
that we may protect life and beauty!

O God of the poor,
help us to rescue the abandoned and forgotten of this earth,
so precious in your eyes.
Bring healing to our lives,
that we may protect the world and not prey on it,
that we may sow beauty, not pollution and destruction.….

Do you see the connection?
The Gospel calls us to be servants of God.
That servanthood is borne, not of our choice to do good or be good,
but of our willingness to offer ourselves as a living sacrifice,
a willingness to be formed and transformed into the likeness of Christ,
at one with the God,
at one with one another
at one with the world in which we live.
creatures, waters, air and all.

Let all God’s people say.









On Trains and Church — a sermon by the vicar

On Trains and Faith
Blue Grass Mass
September 13, 2015


As you roll across the trestle
Spanning Jordan’s swelling tide
You will reach the Union Depot
Into which your train will ride

In the Name of the creating, redeeming and transforming God,
Father, Son and Holy Spirit. Amen.

There is something about trains and train tracks the stirs both psyche and soul.
Something iconic,
something mythic.
Somehow trains seem to inspire stories, songs,
hearts, minds, and souls,
young and old alike.

It’s been said that the perfect country and western song needs to include one of five subjects:
mama, trucks, prison, getting drunk,
or trains.

“Ridin’ on the City of New Orleans”
comes to mind.
Or even The Little Engine That Could
“I think I can , I think I can.”

What is it about trains….?
It has something to do with strength and size,
something to do with the sound.
More than anything, I think,
it has something to do with a journey,
a track,
a distance.

It is different from a car or a truck or a plane.
A car journey is self contained and self propelled.
Trucks are just too plentiful.
In a plane, you can’t really see where you’ve been or where you are going.

But a train….
A train rumbles along a track,
a track that seems to extend endlessly in one direction,
then in another.
You hear it first, then it creeps into view,
well, at least if there is a crossing nearby it creeps.
Out in wide open spaces, a train surges.

But when it comes near to a crossing or a town
the whistle blows.
And the sound of the whistle carries across miles.

We hear it like the call of a pileated woodpecker.
It’s exotic, but strangely familiar, too.
Hear that lonesome whistle blow….

If we are in town we see the gate go down and we start to count the cars despite ourselves,
If it’s only four cars, we are a little disappointed.
More than 20 and we might start to feel a bit impatient.
Still, there is something about those cars,
each distinct,
varying in shape and size and age,
varying a bit in what it carries,
in how it was designed,
in the graffiti on its side.
But all the cars connected together,
Moving together down the track.

Freight trains feel somehow more mythic than passenger trains.
Boxcars carrying cargo and,
in song and story
carrying people who have hitched a ride.

I love the fact that we have a train track running right along side the Advocate Chapel here.
The train doesn’t run on Sundays,
but it runs Monday to Friday.
It’s only cargo is coal,
coal to the university.
Even so, it stirs the imagination and the soul.
When it passes by,
whatever we are doing,
we stop.
And the inner child emerges in any who are here.
We watch it lumber by
we hear it creek and moan,
we feel the ground vibrate just a bit.
And a part of us rides with it,
if even for a moment.

I think that’s part of the mystique.
The train is us,
or life,
or something.
It isn’t clean and shiny and new.
It is rough, hard-working,
It is each of us,
on our journey
passing through life:

As you roll across the trestle
Spanning Jordan’s swelling tide
You will reach the Union Depot
Into which your train will ride.

It is each of us,
But it is more than us.
It is big and strong and exciting.
in your face sometimes
and sometimes distant, far away,

It is,
I will venture here to say,
it is like Church.
train comingMaybe it’s because we have a train track running right along side the Advocate Chapel here.
Maybe it’s because the Chapel itself came here from somewhere else.

But visually it is as though the Chapel itself
were another boxcar on the train.
Moved here over country roads,
planted on blocks of brick,
this chapel is set,
But still it rides the rails.
Still it rumbles and it moves.
And by God’s grace,
God’s yearning,
this boxcar that is chapel is transformed by those of us it carries,
As those of us it carries
Are transformed by God’s grace.

Or so we hope

This boxcar that is chapel
has its whistle,
or at least a bell,
Calling out its presence,
bidding people to take note, take heed,
to get on board.

But the cargo in this boxcar
is not just each and every one of us who gathers here.
It is all who went before.
All who’ve ridden the rails of faith and doubt
Of love and loss
Of sorrow and of joy.
And more.

It is the Church –
known and unknown,
tradition and innovation,
infant and elder
metaphorical and actual,
set and moving,
this boxcar of a chapel has a cargo indeed.

But the car ain’t full.
there’s room for more.
And who then, shall it be?

Jesus, through the prophetic voice of Bruce Springsteen calls:
Grab your ticket and your suitcase
Thunder’s rollin’ down this track
Well, you don’t know where you’re goin’ now
But you know you won’t be back
Well, darlin’ if you’re weary
Lay your head upon my chest
We’ll take what we can carry
Yeah, and we’ll leave the rest

Big wheels roll through fields
Where sunlight streams
Meet me in a land of hope and dreams

Well, I will provide for you
And I’ll stand by your side
You’ll need a good companion now
For this part of the ride
Leave behind your sorrows
Let this day be the last
Tomorrow there’ll be sunshine
And all this darkness past

Big wheels roll through fields
Where sunlight streams
Oh meet me in a land of hope and dreams

This train…
Carries saints and sinners
This train…
Carries losers and winners
This train…
Carries whores and gamblers
This train…
Carries lost souls.

I said this train…
carries broken-hearted
this train
thieves and sweet souls departed
this train
Dreams will not be thwarted
This train…                                                                                                           
Faith will be rewarded

This train…?you don’t need no ticket
This train….
just get on board
on board this train…..
people get ready
this train
you just get on board
this train
And just thank the Lord.
people get ready.
people get ready.
come on this train….

It is good that we are here.




Why Are We Here? Sermon for the anniversary of the Advocate

September 20, 2015
Lisa Fischbeck @TheAdvocate

 Why Are We Here?

The Advocate was launched on September 21, 2003 not only because it was the Feast of St. Matthew, but because the Feast of St. Matthew that year marked 250 years of Anglican/Episcopal ministry in Orange County, North Carolina.

St. Matthews Church in Hillsborough was formed by an act of the Colonial Legislature in 1753. St Matthew’s started the Chapel of the Cross a hundred or so years later in order to provide Episcopal ministry and presence at the largely Presbyterian University of North Carolina. Roughly a hundred years after that the Chapel of the Cross spawned Church of the Holy Family in 1952, in order to provide a church for all the young families coming this way after World War II and the expansion of UNC.

All three of those churches gave birth to the Advocate in 2003.

One of the first questions that had to be answered before and even after that launch was “Why another church?” What can this new church do that isn’t already being done, or that can’t be done another way? What can this new church be that justifies the human and economic resources it will take for this mission to flourish? Or, as one Diocesan official asked, “Why can’t you just be a congregation within the congregation of The Chapel of the Cross?”

Reasonable questions, reasonably asked of every church at its beginning, or even for years to come.


All churches exist so that people, will discover the Way of God made known in Jesus the Christ: Loving and being loved, forgiving and being forgiven, transforming and being transformed.

Ideally, all churches regularly consider anew how they are to respond to the people around them, how to encourage those in their midst, to seek God and a deeper knowledge and love of God.

The particular setting for a new church, though, the time and place in which it begins, in which it exists, usually helps to determine just how that particular church is to do these things.

For the Advocate, the particular setting was a region growing in both numbers and diversity, with no end to that growth in site.

Chapel Hill, North Carolina, is a University town with a population of less than 60,000 people and more than 50 churches. In 2000, there were two established and thriving Episcopal Churches in Chapel Hill, with a third less than 10 miles north in the County Seat of Hillsborough.

Yet at the turn of the new millennium, there was also a confluence of circumstances that caused the Episcopalians of Orange County to start yet another church.

First, the three established Episcopal congregations in the County were all flourishing, yet limited. By the start of the 21st century St. Matthew’s church in Hillsborough was limited by the size of its historic church building and had just started to have three services each Sunday to accommodate its growth. The Chapel of the Cross in Chapel Hill had grown to a membership of more than 1500, with a strong sacred music program and extensive opportunities for Christian formation. They were holding four services each Sunday. Church of the Holy Family, also with extensive Christian education and a congregation of more than 600, was in the process of building a new nave.

But even that new space could not accommodate the growth it was experiencing. All three of these churches were healthy and thriving. All had strong, capable, established rectors and lay leadership.

At the same time, a movement was stirring in the Episcopal Church nationally for the creation, or “planting”, of new churches in just such areas of growth.

Then along came a new bishop to the Diocese of North Carolina, the Rt. Rev. Michael Curry, a man passionate about the Gospel, justice, social change, and “following Jesus for real”; a man passionate about inviting all people to live into the Dream of God and to make that dream known.

The Episcopalians of Orange County got inspired. The three established churches in Orange County, as well as the Diocese, determined to go in together and give birth to a new mission.

This says something significant about our beginnings: The Advocate was born out of health and vitality, not schism and anger. We were born with the strong support of our sponsoring congregations and the Diocese.

And we were launched to extend the Anglican/Episcopal mission and witness in this part of North Carolina.

The Advocate was launched with a clear denominational identity. We were launched to be a mission of the Episcopal Church, which is historically part of the worldwide Anglican Communion. This means that the Advocate is part of a tradition of rich and thoughtful liturgy, theology, and spirituality – a liturgy, theology and spirituality that is distinct from the prevailing Christian theology and spirituality of our surrounding region.

At the same time, the Advocate was also launched to be a church for those who might not be drawn to a more established church setting. We symbolized this for the first ten years by holding our principal liturgy at 5 PM. We also developed a liturgy that is less formal without being less thoughtful and intentional. We welcome questions and doubts, and look for ways to encourage conversations.

There is a certain tension inherent in being rooted in a very established branch of the Christian church, while being created for those not drawn to established church!

This was challenging enough when we were a new and worshiping in rented space. It is getting even more challenging now that we look, from the outside, like a more established church!

Nonetheless, we were launched to be an Episcopal Mission for those not drawn to established church, and called to do so in a particular place: Orange County North Carolina in the United States of America.

Orange County is in a region called the New South – a region exploding with innovation, education, and technology, with immigrants, newcomers, suburban sprawl, a region with a history of racial tensions, and a socio-economic divide. We are in a University town, a relatively liberal pocket of the New South, which means that Bible Belt Protestant Christianity that dominates the Old South is not the dominant spiritual force in the community around us. Being in a progressive affluent University town also yields some particular issues of justice – affordable housing, care for chronically mentally ill adults, an achievement gap in the schools.

And we were launched in a particular time – the start of the 21st century, and therefore called to be mindful of how 21st century culture, practice and values are different from the culture, practice and values of our 18th, 19th, and 20th century colleagues.

We were launched in September 2003, two years after the terrorist attacks of September 11, 2001 – attacks which raised us all to a new level of awareness of the complexities and realities of diverse powers and cultures and religious passions in the world and to a new level of awareness of our place in the thick of it all.

September 2003, was also three years after the pre-dominantly white, southern Episcopal Diocese of North Carolina elected a black man to be our bishop. Michael B. Curry, who came of age in the south during the Civil Rights era, was shaped by it and preaches from it.

September 2003, was one month after the Episcopal Church voted in its General Convention to approve of the consecration of an openly gay and partnered man to be a Bishop of the Church.

These events, each part of our season of incubation, inform who we are. Add to it the five years we spent worshipping in a synagogue. And it becomes clear that the Advocate is called to find new ways to relate to those of other faiths and identities in this world in which we live, to honor and to model what Rabbi Jonathan Sacks calls “The Dignity of Difference”.

We are called to be an open and inclusive church, bearing witness to the radical hospitality of God, to the assurance that in the Promised Land to which we are being led, all God’s children have a full and equal place at the table.

As a 21st century church, in addition to having a global awareness of church, religion and society, we also understand “outreach” to be based on relationships; we are environmentally conscious at every level of our life and ministry; and we are relatively internet savvy.

There is a certain liberation that comes from “starting a church from scratch”. Unconstrained by local or parochial customs and practices that may have lost their practicality, the Advocate has been free to consider the ancient practices of the Church afresh, and to apply them in our own time and place.

And because we were launched specifically to consider new ways of being church,  it can be said that the Advocate was created to always be new,  to always be listening to what God is calling us to do and be as new people and ideas come into the community year by year.

Things have changed at the Advocate in the past 12 years. Especially in the last 2, since we have been perched on the bricks here by the train tracks! But in the years since 2003, things have changed in the Episcopal Church at large as well.

New prayers, new liturgies, new music, new settings for worship, greater inclusion and global awareness in all these things.

Like the God we worship, neither the Episcopal Church nor the Advocate, at our best, are static, but are rather dynamic. Change, change, change!

But while, as a mission launched in a university town in Orange County North Carolina at the start of the 21st century, we are called to be alert to the changes around us, and to those who might not be drawn to a more established church for whatever the reason. And while we are ever on the look-out for new ways of being an Episcopal church, we need always to be mindful of why church at all: to seek God and a deeper knowledge and love of God, to be at peace with one another, and to do so by being transformed and conformed into the Way of Christ.

This is at the heart of why we do what we do. This is why we are here.

Glory to God, whose power working in us can do infinitely more than we can ask or imagine. glory to God from generation to generation in the Church, and in Christ Jesus, forevermore.




Once I Was a Gentile, Now I am Not — A Justine Post Sermon

The following sermon was offered by Justine Post at the Advocate, Sunday, July 19, 2015, Year B, Proper XI

“But now in Christ Jesus you who once were far off have been brought near by the blood of Christ.” In the name of the Father, and the Son and the Holy Spirit. Amen.

How quick we are to forget that we are still Gentiles. How quickly we have forgotten that we were once not God’s chosen people. We’ve gotten so accustomed to receiving a faith that has been passed down to us through liturgies, families, the Book of Common Prayer, the Bible… that we have lost a certain kind of orientation- that of the Ephesians. That of outsiders who have been adopted, grafted into the story of God. We don’t remember what its like, to be a people who have not exactly inherited but been given this story as their own. We were once strangers.

This sort of theme isn’t new to us- at different times we’ve felt estranged from God. We can easily recall the words from the famous hymn: I once was lost, but now am found… was blind but now I see. This kind of estrangement is similar but a bit different. We don’t usually sing, “I once was a Gentile and now I’m not….was uncircumcised but now it doesn’t matter.” But nevertheless this is true.

I remember the first time I understood God’s story as an outsider, and it wasn’t through my home Episcopal Church. I first learned that I belonged to a group who was outside the story of God- aliens from the commonwealth of Israel- embarrassingly but truthfully enough through a cartoon. Many or most of you might not get this reference, but at least my parents will…they know how much TV I used to watch. One show was called The Rugrats- a cartoon that portrayed the life of talking babies. The main protagonist’s family was Jewish- and although I didn’t know really what that all meant at the time, they did a special episode on Passover. All the babies played special characters- Moses, Pharaoh, the Israelites, etc. And they must have aired that episode a lot during my childhood…because I remember watching it a lot. I learned more about the story of Moses and his people from this cartoon than I did in church! I knew this story meant something to my faith, but I couldn’t exactly pinpoint it. More than anything I remember having a reverence for that story and the Jewish faith- I knew that in a way that story wasn’t mine. It was that families; it was their people.

Of course in church I did learn that that story mattered to us Christians too. Because we’ve been grafted into this faith, that story matters to us now. But for so long I hadn’t given much thought to being an outsider anymore that I never once considered being a Gentile. So the second time I encountered our alien-ness it was embarrassingly enough not until my second year of seminary, in my theology class. Willie Jennings- a professor/theologian who focuses on the racial formation of the world, colonialism, and how Christianity intersects within- was lecturing to us about the arrival of the first Catholic orders in the New World. In attempting to convert native tribes to Christianity, it didn’t go so well. Not everywhere but with many tribes they used force, sometimes violence, and paid no particular attention to the tribes’ history, beliefs, or rights. In some places violent battles broke out, and many lost their lives.

When I heard that it all struck me as very messy and upsetting. How? How could they have performed all of this violence in the name of God? Jennings’ reply: “They forgot. They forgot that they were Gentiles!” They lost the orientation of stranger, of one who has been humbly adopted into the story of God. Without this orientation, they assumed an entitled disposition. They never considered themselves as ones in need of hospitality. They never considered the bond between land and native people. They understood themselves never as aliens apart from God but as always having been inheritors of the faith. In their minds they were chosen by God, not adopted. This proved to be a dangerous and at times a violent exegesis. Without what Jennings calls a “gentile existence,” anything is permissible. There is no need for the welcoming hand of the other; belonging occurs wherever you go. Everyone’s entitled and assumes they’re in the right. And what’s most troubling: when we forget our former strange-ness, the walls of hostility as mentioned in Ephesians appear to have remained standing. Without a gentile existence, this sense of entitlement leads us away from the Prince of Peace. And it leads us away from unity.

A gentile existence, Jennings suggests, is Ruth-like. As in, “you will be my people and your God will be my God.” This is the disposition, the angle, the orientation we should take in the Christian life. We were once dependent on the radical hospitality of the God of Israel. We were once apart from God’s story. We have graciously been adopted into this faith, and we now have the opportunity to claim the God of Israel- indeed the Triune God, Father, Son, and Holy Spirit- as our God.

We do need to be like Ruth. And if you happen to find yourself feeling proud and entitled as an Episcopalian, maybe you need to attend a confirmation class with Lisa. I remember my first one where she started the class by saying, “The history of the Anglican Church… or Henry XIII just wanted a divorce.” Nothing like those “humble beginnings” to remind us that we truly are brought into God’s story by Grace alone. Through Christ we have somehow been beautifully written into Israel’s history. We are uplifted and taken into a new place. It should humble us. It reminds me of Anne Lamott’s words: “I do not at all understand the mystery of grace- only that it meets us where we are but does not leave us where it found us.”

We are no longer outsiders, but rather we have now found ourselves in the midst of Christ’s redeeming work. But that doesn’t mean we can forget that we were once outsiders. We’re not outsiders anymore, but we can’t forget that we were. That means we are not center to this story, but rather God is. Isn’t that why we come to church anyways? It reminds us that we aren’t the center, but God is. Our confession, the peace, the table, and even the way we sit remind us that we didn’t really choose to be in this story, but that God graciously brought us in. This place- church- reminds us that in Christ there is true peace, for there is no longer Jew nor Gentile. We are all one.

But what about this wall of hostility? This letter to the Ephesians declares that through the cross, Christ has broken it down. The world does not believe this message- the world has convinced its inhabitants that walls of hostility still exist and they serve a purpose. Sometimes these walls seem to exist, and seem profoundly big: humanity has continued to build them up- walls that exist between races and socioeconomic status, physical and legislative walls that literally keep thousands of men and women separated from society and locked up, walls that appear from years of broken or unattended relationships. I could go on… the walls can feel big and violent. But these “walls” are an affront to God, because through Christ these walls don’t even exist. It looks like the walls exist, but they really don’t exist. It’s confusing I know. But when we the church read a text that proclaims: “Christ is our peace; in his flesh he has made both groups into one and has broken down the dividing wall, that is, the hostility between us,” we must proclaim that as a reality in the face of hostility in this world. This word to the Ephesians is past tense- not even past tense, past participle! Through the body of Jesus Christ on the cross, both groups have been reconciled. The hard work has been done. These walls continue to appear perhaps because we still don’t know how to live into this new unified humanity.

This new humanity in the place of two. It’s not just new like a new coffee mug or a new shirt. This kind of new is a different Greek word. Kainos is qualitatively different. New as in completely unseen, unheard of, un-invented. Nothing like we’ve seen before. This newness looks like a lot like the Gospel text for today. Even though Jesus and his disciples are tired from their journey and have not had any time to rest, this large group of people- Jews, Gentiles, people from all over- are following him around. Jesus does not deny them but has compassion upon them. Compassion that leads to healing and wholeness that only he can complete. All of the sick who touched his cloak were healed. Here Jesus is offering that radical hospitality that we are so in need of. He brought a newness to all who came to him. This is the chaos of people that has been grafted into one body through Christ. For some reason this story reminds me of what I hear when people are receiving Eucharist: while Jesus is making his way into our lives, some are singing, many are praying, multiple utterances of “body of Christ,” “cup of salvation,” and “amen,” over and over. Every noise during the distribution reminds me that Jesus truly did welcome all. And here we all are, grasping for his cloak.

So we remember It happens every week here: the Eucharist is here telling us- don’t forget! Don’t forget that you were once outside but have been welcomed in. Don’t forget that you are now a part of God’s people. Don’t forget that through the cross of Christ the walls of hostility have been broken down. And we’re allowed to proclaim that! Not just by word but by action. We must live in a way wherein the Spirit breaks into our lives and assures us that yes the walls don’t really exist.

I’m not here to tell you something new. I know through your varied ministries and work throughout this community you all are out living in this newness, pushing back against these non-existent walls. We must continue to follow the lead of the Holy Spirit. Remember our former other-ness as we seek unity with those who are un-like us. Remember that God is God and we are not. Continue to trust in the church and it’s sacraments that are given to us. When we pray we should really mean it. When we follow the lead of the Holy Spirit I believe it can lead us into strange friendships, reconciling conversations, and works of justice.

“So then you are no longer strangers and aliens, but you are citizens with the saints and also members of the household of God.” We are a family, joined not by our own blood but through the blood of Christ. Acting in this way requires a boldness prompted by the Holy Spirit. So we bid Holy Spirit come. Amen.

“Courageous Vulnerability and Quiet Confidence” A Nathan Kirkpatrick Sermon

A sermon offered by The Rev. Nathan Kirkpatrick at The Advocate on June 21, 2015, Year B, Proper 7.
Depayne and Cynthia.
Susie and Ethel.
Clementa and Daniel and Myra.
Tywanza and Sharonda.
A week ago, these nine were unknown to most of us.
These retirees, this librarian; this track coach; these preachers; these dreamers.
These mothers and fathers, sons and daughters — our brothers and sisters. These students of Scripture.
Before Wednesday evening, they were unknown to most of us in this room and to most everyone in this country.
But the Goliath that killed them is sadly too well known to us.
He goes by many names; he wears many faces.
     He is gun violence. He is hate. He is racism.
               He has been fed on power and privilege and prejudice.
                    He is hulking, and he is afraid. But he masks his fear with rage and violence.
                    He stalks our streets, haunts our cities;
                         kills our children, our parents, our neighbors, our friends.
                                 He is gruesome, fearsome, and well-armed.
     His mere appearance can reduce a president to tears.
     And he taunts us to fight back.
But how can we?
We have tried so many ways to defeat this Goliath.
We have wielded the swords of legislation and diversity trainings,
We have carried the spears of passion and even compassion out to meet him.
We have tried to reason with him, educate him, treat him, negotiate with him.
We have protested him, marched against him. We have lit our candles in his presence and in the wake of his devastations. We have held vigil. We have pleaded with heaven.
When all of that has seemed to affect no change,
We have even tried shielding ourselves from him with denial.
          But still he comes. He still breaks through our defenses.
               He taunts and teases and terrifies all at once.
                    And cuts down the innocent.
                         And, when this Goliath shows himself,
                         we tremble and grieve, fearful and uncertain what might come next.
Parker Palmer says that this is the point that people of conscience
find themselves tempted by two options:
     First — we yield to a corrosive cynicism,
          a kind of despair and despondency that says that Goliath will always win,
               that there will always be another nine and another nine beyond that,
                    that our streets and sanctuaries will never know peace,
                    and that the casualties will only continue to mount.
                         That’s a corrosive cynicism that comes from the gradual wearing down of the soul,
                         the erosion that comes from the daily-ness of the headlines and the stories.
                              It’s an abandonment of our call to hope.
The other choice that Palmer identifies is
that we find ourselves becoming irrelevant idealists —
     the kind of people who can only really spout platitudes in the face of suffering,
          the kind of people that hold real hurt at bay just hoping that tomorrow will be a better day.
                    It is a kind of irrelevant idealism that is borne from the walling off of the soul.
                         It is born from building defenses to shield ourselves from other people’s pain —
                              It is an abandonment of our call to love our neighbor.
                                   Because we cannot love our neighbor if we do not see and feel their pain.
And let’s be brutally honest for a moment:
  For most of middle class white America, these are really only options
      — both corrosive cynicism and irrelevant idealism — because we know
           that Goliath hunts in other neighborhoods first.
Which is one reason why we need First Samuel chapter 17,
why we need the story of a shepherd boy who willingly goes out to take on the giant.
     Because the shepherd shows us that there’s another way,
          that we, who might have the luxury to grow caustically cynical or vapidly idealistic,
               might find a way forward when Goliath comes, when another nine fall,
                    or even better yet, might take on the giant before another nine fall.
I had never noticed until this week, in the shadow of Charleston,
that, in the story of David and Goliath, King Saul tries everything
to shield David from the giant’s wrath.
Did you notice?
Saul tries to talk David out of going. “You are just a boy.”
     And when David cannot be persuaded, Saul takes David and clothes him in his own armor — a helmet, a coat of mail, the royal sword.
          But, and this is the critical part — 
          When David is wrapped in all of power’s protections, he is powerless to move.
          When he is all defended, he cannot even walk, let alone win.
               “I cannot walk with these; for I am not used to them.”
It is only when David sheds all that might shield him
that he is able to confront the evil before him. 
So he goes without armor, without a helmet, without the royal sword.
He goes with faith and trust in God
and five stones he picked up from the ground
and walks out to meet the giant.
Now there is a certain sermon that says,
here are the five stones that we must wield to bring the giant down.
     This is not that sermon.
Because the more powerful witness of the shepherd is that, when facing Goliath,
the only real weapons we can bear are our own vulnerability
and our confidence that God is still Emmanuel,
that God is with us, and that what God wants for the world
is not what Goliath wants for it.
And that God’s dream wins.
It is why Paul can later write to the Corinthians, “open wide your hearts,”
because God’s work in their vulnerability can be a witness against a whole empire of Goliaths.
In his eulogy for
Addie Mae, Cynthia, Carole and Carol Denise
— the four young girls killed
in the bombing of the 16th Street Baptist Church in Birmingham —
Martin Luther King, Jr., said that their deaths
“say to each of us, black and white alike, that we must substitute courage for caution.”
Yes, we must.
It is time to substitute courage for caution.
So let us shed all that might shield us.
Let us meet Goliath with the courage of vulnerability
and the confidence that — to quote King again —
God is still in the habit “of wringing good from evil.”

Attentive to the Spirit: A Pentecost Sermon

IMG_5306The Day of Pentecost
May 24, 2015
The Advocate at Pondside
The Rev. Lisa G. Fischbeck, Vicar
“I still have many things to say to you,
but you cannot bear them now.
When the Spirit of truth comes,
she will guide you into all the truth;

This is one of the most exciting prospects in all of Scripture.

Jesus says, “I still have many things to say to you,
but you cannot bear them now.
When the Spirit of truth comes,
she will guide you into all the truth;

I love it.
Because it means that there is more to be known,
more to be revealed,
more to be enacted
about God and God’s ways.
The disciples could only take in so much.
So Jesus sent the Holy Spirit, the Advocate,
to guide and nudge and teach.

And while the Spirit moved St. Paul in many exciting, challenging and life-giving ways,
the Spirit didn’t retire with St. Paul.
And while the Spirit moved the Church Fathers and the medieval women mystics in many exciting, challenging and life-giving ways,
the Spirit didn’t retire in the 12th century either.
And while the Spirit moved the church to reform
over and again in centuries past,
the Spirit still hasn’t retired.
No, the Spirit of truth is moving
revealing things to us that those in ages past could not bear.

Now perhaps it is because I grew up in an era of tv cartoons of a certain ilk,
but I imagine the Spirit moving around,
swirling around, buzzing around,
trying to get into
our world
our thoughts
our industries,
our governments
our churches.

Moving, swirling, buzzing,
wanting to reveal a truth as yet unknown to us.
And over and over and over again
the Spirit bumps into a shield
or a wall,
or a barrier.

The term “Iron Dome” is a good one.
Sounds pretty impenetrable.
And while the State of Israel coined the phrase,
it is apt for the shields we create,
for the shields we create with
our business, or our busy-ness,
with our gadgets, or our habits,
with out traditions and ways we hold so dear,
with our study and analysis without reflection,
with or our focus on anything we can find to focus on
besides God and our fellow human creatures.
An Iron Dome.
And the Spirit moves and swirls and buzzes around,
looking for a point of entry.

The Spirit is persistent.
And despite our best efforts to keep the Spirit at bay,
(usually unintentional efforts, I should emphasize,
patterns and practices to which we are oblivious)
despite our best efforts to keep the Spirit at bay,
still she manages,
every so often,
to find a crack or a gap,
and work her way in.
Or she drills a hole like a carpenter bee in a mailbox post.

She works her way in.
And it is at once settling and unsettling for us;
unsettling because it is different,
settling because it is true.

There are hallmarks, of course.
Ways we can know if something has been inspired by the Spirit, or not.
And some here who were raised in certain branches of the church can probably recite those hallmarks,
the so-called “fruit” of the Spirit.
(Me, I have to google it…)
In Paul’s letter to the Galatians,
he writes that the fruit of the Spirit is:
love, joy, peace,
patience, kindness, goodness,
faithfulness, gentleness and self-control.

Not a bad list!
And certainly it provides a good way for us to know
if the action taken,
the behavior modified,
the words spoken
are of the Spirit’s touch,
or not.
Love, joy, peace,
patience, kindness, goodness,
faithfulness, gentleness and self-control.

I would add another,
revealed in the reading from Acts today.

A fruit of the Spirit is an awareness
of unity in our diversity.
Not a false and forced unity,
but an exciting and energetic unity.

I don’t now about you,
but I have often had an exhilarating sense of the Holy Spirit
when I have been in the thick of a really diverse group of people
relating to one another with love, respect and joy.
Sometimes it is even when I am realizing the diversity of two.
Me and someone else.
An other.

There are times when our awareness of the Spirit and its fruit is frenzied.
That Day of Pentecost we just heard about was pretty wild.
And Spirit-filled music can get downright rowdy.

And there are times our awareness of the Spirit is something very, very calm.
Like a gentle breeze or a sweet, not-humid, stillness.

And here’s the deal.
When we feel it,
We will know it is God.
Or…. We may not.

In fact sometimes I wonder if God is like those people that are so generous of spirit
that they don’t really care if they get credit or acknowledgment for the good deed they have done, or not.
Just as long as the good deed is done.

The Spirit is at work all over the place,
whether we humans realize it or not.
And when the Church and her people steal themselves against her,
why, she finds another way.

Some of you may have heard about the recent efforts of news columnist David Brooks to call our society to a more moral way of life.
He does not speak of the Holy Spirit.
But he shares her language and his writing may very well yield her fruit.
The book is called:
The Road to Character.

My hunch is that because we live in an age when many simply cannot hear the vocabulary of the Church,
the Spirit knows to find another way such as this.

The message will resonate with thousands, or more.
Because when our spirit connects with the Spirit of truth
we human beings feel as though we have come home for the first time.
We were created that way.

Sam Laurent once said,
“Our job as the Church of the Advocate is to respond to God’s graceful, often surprising, presence by paying attention to it.”
That is, perhaps the key.
To pay attention.
Use the prayers, the fellowship, the sacraments.
Develop a practice of silence.
Read what those outside the church are doing
that yields love, joy, peace,
patience, kindness, goodness,
faithfulness, gentleness and self-control.
And Unity in diversity.
Pay attention.
And name it for what we know it to be:
The movement of the Spirit.

Now I envision one of those great domed telescopes
high atop a hill.
And when the astronomer is ready to learn and experience the vast expanse of interstellar space more fully,
he flips the switch,
and slowly, steadily,
the hatchway opens.
Heck, I don’t know,
maybe it falters a bit,
but then continues.

“Our job as the Church of the Advocate is to respond to God’s graceful, often surprising, presence by paying attention to it.”
We do well to do whatever helps us
to pay attention,
to take heed,
to listen,
to be intentional,
on the lookout.
They all suggest the same thing.

We do well to do whatever helps us
to open the door, the window, the dome,
a bit more.
So that we can receive the Spirit of truth
and let her guide us into the truth.
a truth as yet unknown to us.

That is what this day is about.
Reminding ourselves that the Spirit is alive and well,
looking for a connection,
bidding us to open up.

Holy Spirit come to us.
Kindle in us the fire of your love.
Holy Spirit come to us.
Holy Spirit come to us. Amen.

Chosen for Love: A Sermon by the Vicar

A Sermon offered for Year B, Easter VI, May 10, 2015, @TheAdvocate byt The Rev. Lisa G. Fischbeck

In the Name of the Creating, Restoring and Transforming God,
Father, Son and Holy Spirit. Amen.

You did not choose me but I chose you.
And I appointed you to go and bear fruit, fruit that will last.

It took me a while to notice,
but May is a hard month in the life of the Advocate.
People leave.
We wish them well,
we pray them on their way.
And we grieve.
A church with young adults experiences this a lot.
A church that embraces change as one of its descriptors
experiences it even more.

A church that is open to change
attracts people who like change,
not only in their church, but also in their lives.
Off they go.
Some to a first job,
others to another job,
some to be ordained as priests,
others to be closer to extended family.            (see note below*)

The litany of the Advocate diaspora is long:

Miranda Hassett, Phil Hassett and their two kids, now in Wisconsin, where Miranda is a priest at St. Dunstan’s in Madison and Phil is an amazing stay at home dad who still masters our website.

Gabe Lamazares and Terry Milner, now in New York City, where Gabe is a priest at the Church of St. Luke in the Fields in Greenwich Village and Terry is finishing a Masters in screenwriting at NYU.

Buck Cooper and Elisabeth Malphurs,
called to return to their native Mississippi,
where Buck is applying his UNC PhD in education to teach middle school students science,
and Elisabeth is working as a social worker with the chronically mentally ill.

Joslyn, Brian and Elias Schafer,
who moved to Morehead City so Brian could get a job practicing law.
Now they are in Charlotte,
where Joslyn is a priest and Brian a lawyer.

Hugo Oliaz and John Charles Duffy, now in Ohio,
where John-Charles teaches about Religion in America at Miami of Ohio, and Hugo continues to provide support for gay Mormon youth.

Then there is Sam Laurent,
our own Theologian in Residence,
and his wife, Kim, and daughter, Maddie.
We sent them off to Duke University in January,
so Sam could be the interim Episcopal Campus Minister there.
And he is doing the job so well,
he may very well be given the ongoing position….

This is but a sampling.
There are dozens,
I mean dozens more.

Every May we say farewell.
God grant you many years, good people,
sisters and brothers of the Advocate….
Today we send of Johnny and Nicki and Eli Tuttle to go and live in Georgia.
And we bid David Wantland farewell for a summer at Furman University.
And I just found out that this is the last Sunday that Liz Gilson Aaron will be with us before she hits the road for a month to two years….

Geez, it’s hard.

I was describing this rhythm of our lives to a colleague this week.
“Reminds me of the pelican”, she said.
It is said that when times are hard and food is scarce
the mother pelican will pierce her own flesh with her beak in order to provide food for her children.

The image is strong, whether or not it is true.
Seen in stained glass windows,
tapestries and even tattoos,
the pelican is depicted with drops, or a flow, of blood, coming from her beak and breast,
little chicks eager to receive.

It is, you see, an image of the Christ.

For those of us who have been through a May or two at the Advocate,
the image rings true.

Year after year,
we send our beloved out into the world
and it hurts.
But it is part of our vocation as the Church of the Advocate.

For just as we welcome people into our fold,
firmly believing that there are some who will grow closer to God and to God’s people here at the Advocate in a way that they simply would not or could not elsewhere,
So we believe that we have been called,
as a mission church,
to raise people up for ministry elsewhere in the church,
elsewhere in the world.

Jesus says:
You did not choose me but I chose you.

to a post-Blues Brothers generation,
to say we are on “a mission from God” can sound humorous.
And to claim that we are “chosen” for this work can readily sound vainglorious.

But if we do not at some level believe that we have a particular call,
and that God is with us in this journey,
why then are we here?

The Church of the Advocate was started in a university town in the new old South in 2003
We were started, in part,
to be an alternative expression of the Episcopal Anglican church for a new generation.
It is part of our calling therefore to be rooted in the Anglican tradition,
but not bound by it.
To re-member things old.
And to try things new.

We do this physically week by week,
facing each other in chairs rather than pews
using binders with music from across the centuries and around the world,
in a 19th century carpenter Gothic chapel, no less.

We do it in other ways as well:
how we structure ourselves, for example,
which is to say, minimally.
And how we use technology.
We do it spiritually, too,
especially as we create a culture of honesty and hospitality,
and anchor ourselves, not only in the Eucharist,
but also in contemplative prayer.

Whether or not we are comfortable saying that we have been “chosen” by God for this work,
or saying that we are on “a mission from God”,
it is our calling to be a new old church in 21st century North Carolina.

And part of that calling
is to send people forth from the Advocate
out into the world to bear fruit from the experience they have been given here.
There’s a word for it, you know.
I love that word.
It literally means make something fruitful or productive.
to bear fruit.

The Advocate is called to fructify
by sending our beloved people out into the world beyond this place.


You did not choose me but I chose you.
And I appointed you to go and bear fruit, fruit that will last.

In our Diaspora
the Advocate is a fruitful congregation.
But I pray that today’s Gospel to our ears doesn’t end there.
Rather, my hope is that our experience as a congregation
will inform and influence our experience as individual Christians as well.

For Jesus speaks to us collectively and individually.
And whether we feel the language of being “chosen” sounds vainglorious or not,
truth be told,
each and every one of us here has been chosen by God,
chosen to be loved to the very fibers of our being
to every wisp and element of our soul.

Each and every one of us here
has been chosen by God.
Chosen to be loved and to bear the fruit of that love in the world by our faith.
We may feel shy to claim such language for ourselves.
Me? Chosen?
We may be afraid of the pain, sacrifice and loss
that will likely ensue if we take that call to heart.
Things will not be exactly as we wished or as we wanted when first we set out.
It will hurt some.
But something lovlier will result.

Remember the mother pelican….

God is calling us,
each and every one,
to bear much fruit in our actions, thoughts and words
Why do we do it?
to reveal God’s love.
It is that simple.
to reveal God’s love.

In case you missed it for the beauty of the weather and everything else going on this week,
on Friday the church throughout the world
celebrated the Feast of Dame Julian of Norwich,
a 14th century woman who understood this revelation of God’s love better than just about anybody before or since.
Because it was revealed to her.

She wrote:
What, do you wish to know your Lord’s meaning in this thing?
Know it well, love was his meaning.
Who reveals it to you?

What did he reveal you?
Why does he reveal it to you?
For Love….
So I was taught that love is our Lord’s meaning.

Love is the fruit of our actions, thoughts and words.

So whether we have gifts of prayer
or organizing,
or being present to another in need,
whether we have gifts for teaching or for writing,
for tending to those who are ailing or impaired,
or gifts for keeping things fiscally sound or spiritually enlivened,
each of us has been chosen to share that fruit
that we might better reveal God’s love to one another and to the world.

You did not choose me but I chose you.
And I appointed you to go and bear fruit, fruit that will last.


* For more on the many dimensions of the Season of Departures at the Advocate, see post on